{denial}

I think I've been in denial.  

We've known we would be moving for a long time now, but it's been so easy to forget, since we haven't been able to actively move forward until we heard from the relocation company, and everything was in line and ready to go.

Our relocation information was delayed for a few weeks, so we just started the process last week, and it has been a WHIRLWIND since then, especially with not much time left before we need to leave.  Just in the past week, I've spent hours on the phone with realtors, mortgage companies, painters, relocation personnel, friends that live in Texas, and movers...and it's just the beginning.  The next few weeks are going to bring changes--whether I'm ready or not.

It's inevitable...it's going to happen...our house will be up for sale within a week, and it truly is the most surreal experience I've had in a very long time.  We've never sold a house before, so this is all very new.  I have to say, it's very odd to think of people I don't know walking through my house without me here.  An even crazier thought is realizing that one of them will be living here instead of me, in just a few short weeks.

Our first house hunting trip is scheduled, I'm picking out houses to look at, and while I'm seeing beautiful homes, I'm also trying to imagine our family living anywhere but here.  It's hard when there are so many memories associated with this town, our neighborhood, and our home.  I know that home is where your family is, and that any house we purchase will become our home, but right now it's just so unsettling to think about it.

I honestly can't believe we are six to seven weeks out from leaving.  I've been walking around our house, and driving around town, trying to take as many mental pictures as I can, knowing that the time we have left here is precious, and slipping by.  I've made a list of things I want to do before I go, and most of those include friends--I want to soak up everything and everyone as much as I possibly can. 

I still can't picture us living somewhere else, and I suppose that will only change with time. I probably sound like I'm not excited at all, but that's not true. I'm actually looking forward to a new adventure, but right now there is just so much to DO, that I just don't have time to process it yet.  It's probably a good thing that I'm so busy--there's no time to dwell on saying good-bye.

Okay, so this was probably pretty rambly, but it's an accurate picture of how I feel right now.  So many thoughts and feelings are tumbling around, and you're getting to read about them.  :) I've always been an adventurous person that has enjoyed change, and I think I still am.  But I'm also now a person that has finally lived in one place long enough to have my perspective change. 

I am feeling blessed for the power of knowing when something is right, because for the moment, that's what is carrying me through. I'm strong, and I can do this--it's just going to be hard to leave what I love.